Monday, March 26, 2012


Michael has been gone for nearly a year. The last of the "milestone" dates is coming up on April 11. But this one seems easy.


Thanks to a lot of counseling, work, friendships, activities outside the home, I've managed to build a good foundation for the rest of my life. I've discovered it's time to move on, take care of myself with a firm grip on what happened in the past. I cannot change the past, but I sure have learned from it.

I'm strong.

Perhaps I always was strong. However, that strength was usually spent on others whilst ignoring myself.

I've also recognized it's OK to take time off from the every day stuff, to feel down every now and then is understandable. The important thing to remember is to be kind to myself. Cutting myself some slack.

So, I've learned a lot the past eleven months. I've allowed myself to mourn too. I don't mean to give anybody the impression that I don't miss Michael at all. I do. I miss the healthy, happy go lucky Michael. But, he disappeared years ago.

Actually, this has been quite a liberating experience. I'm still Mom,, but for the first time in 25 years, my days are not consumed with someone else first. Believe it or not, it took some getting over the guilt trip I placed on myself.

Excuse me for a while. I'm going to sew since that is what I want to do

Love ya,

Friday, March 2, 2012

Short of the Goal

My goal for the month of February was to completely finish five quilts.

Well..... I completed three - the Betty Boop, Pampered Pooches and Ten Minute Blocks. The other two are pieced and laying on the frame- a baby quilt and a 1600 quilt.

I sort of got side-tracked.

My twin nephews are graduating this spring and I struggled with finding the "right" quilt pattern for them. Finally found a wonderful pattern on the internet - an Ohio State pattern made from five inch log cabin squares. So, I started that last week. I e-mailed the designer and she's working on a pattern for Bowling Green which should be ready in a couple of weeks. Obviously, those are my nephews' college choices.

It's going to be an extremely busy weekend. There's a quilt show in Lebanon which I may attend. I've gone in years past, but had to skip it last year. I'm meeting a friend for dinner on Saturday night. After dinner, she and I are going to a concert at church. The widows/widowers group at church is having their quarterly meeting on Sunday afternoon - I'm supposed to bring a dessert. In between all that, the regular weekend activities and some quilting.

What I'm looking forward to the most? Sleeping in on Saturday morning.

Love ya,