Tuesday, January 12, 2010

I'm IN!

OK Linda and Regina. I'm in with the virtual sewing project. Already have the Shoo-Fly pattern in the Nickel quilts book too! Got loads of five inch squares already cut too. The Snowball quilt will be perfect for the Figgy Pudding jelly roll that I already have. Thanks gals, for helping to lift me out of the doldrums.

Here's what I think happened: I compromised myself. I haven't been to church since Christmas - I think going to church helps foster a more positive attitude. Back to service for this girl! And I've been so busy taking care of Michael, Andrea and Tattoo Boy, there's been little time for myself. I won't give up on taking care of my little family, but I need to do more for myself. And if that means quilting then so be it. I can reach a "happy medium" most nights when I spend an hour in the sewing room and then watch television or play Wii games with Andrea for the remainder of the evening. I did that last night and it worked out well.

I need to tackle my issues head on and I believe that I completed a couple of huge steps forward yesterday by having a frank discussion with Michael and contacting the furnace repairman. Michael gets so frustrated by not being able to do all the chores he used to and hates, hates, hates paying a specialist to do them. Well, sorry, but I am not going to let the furnace issues we're having deteriorate to the point where we wake up one morning with icicles stuck to our noses. It's either I have to do it or hire somebody to perform the task. Michael has to get used to that.

The other thing Michael has to watch is how his anger is affecting the rest of us. Yes, he's dying and he has every right to be mad as hell about it. It bothers him to no end that he won't be able to leave money to his children after his death. I need to remind him that his "legacy" is much more than financial gain. It's how people will remember him after he's gone. Would he want Andrea to remember him as being an angry, bitter man who never had a kind word for her? Or would he wish her memories to be pleasant and full of love. If he left this world today, I'm afraid Andrea's memories of her step-dad would not be happy ones. He needs to work on that.

Thanks for "listening". Back to "quilty" thoughts soon. Promise.



Jen said...

Giggle, I just told Regina that I'm "in" but I'm in half-assed because I'm already working on something similar but not at all scrappy.

You do need to take care of yourself. =)

BitnByAQuiltingBug said...

Yay! I'm so so so glad you are joining in! This is going to be a fun, no pressure project. Just the way I like things. You sure do have a great outlook on things and I love that you look to God for answers. Going to church feeds my soul. If I miss going, I can feel myself losing something important. You are always in my prayers, Cathy! Sew, lets throw some Snowballs!

Linda and Piwacket said...

Cathy, you are so loved by all of us. We'd do anything for you. You were right to talk to Michael and you are so correct about his legacy. Stuff and possessions are crap when you get right down to it. Everything will end up in a landfill some day. But the relationships we make and the feelings we share do last for all eternity. You are a wonderful witness to Christ's love. I'm so glad you're joining in our quilt-along!

Jennifer said...

I hope the shoofly quilt gives you some time for serenity! Good for you for recognizing and taking much needed time for yourself. Hope the furnace issue gets repaired soon and good luck w/the family!

Michele said...

Oh, I hope for his sake that Michael listens to you. At least you said your piece, and that's important for *you*. Hugs.